Have A New Year

With so much good and so much awful in 2012, I didn’t know how or what to feel on this eve of ending becoming beginning; didn’t quite know what to thank or ask for.  This was no usual melding of time.  My throat choked with tears of aching losses and gulps of incredible gains; grimness and gratitude; leaving me on an expansive  plateau of open for business of,’ I-don’t-know.’

It is a weird feeling to have no thing nailed down; buttoned up or known.

And it is also a bit exciting to go with the kinda scary to be this open; this blank page waiting to be written upon.

Am on the edge of newness in my old skin and the teller of story is anticipating some very interesting his and her tales.

I feel like an ancestor in the making.

Emerging from a day’s end shower, readying for sleep, my dear Tom announced that he’d just washed off the old 2012 and here I sit at my computer, fresh and facing the fact that I’d pretty much done the same thing.

What comes to dust our boots; shine light on our paths and whip us with wisdom is yet to unfold.

I feel like it’s just right around the corner, peeking at us all, this 2013, saying, “Ha ha! You survived! Stand together. Have we got fun for you!”

I can hope for kindness and compassion and peace for us all…honoring and patience and embracing of differences.

First I’ll grow these things more in myself, I think, because I don’t have much skin back on yet.  I’ll have to be tender, gentle and sometimes silent to listen for the growing, the new, the winds and energy of change.

And I might have to be slower, have things repeated, stop from time to time.

Because I feel like I’m catching up to something.

Perhaps it’s breath.

Wanting to wish everyone better than the best any of us can imagine, I let go of searching for new words or settling for old saws of the occasion.

What will come will come.

For today, for this moment, this now, without frames or borders or preconceived future; open-palmed, ready for you to write your own new stories, I simply say with love, “Have a New Year.”


One Response to “Have A New Year”

  1. Ray Says:

    I’ve heard that what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger. You have to be the strongest woman I know.
    Looking Backward Into the Future

    The year 2012 is finished. Somehow, the dark parts are remembered more than the upside, at least for me this year. I know your strength has been tested.

    There were more than a few to leave us. For me there was Dave Brubeck, and of course Ray Bradbury, Neil Armstrong and who could forget Sally Ride. Of the many things I’ve done, and jobs I’ve had I spent time here in Houston as a cab driver. That’s where I met Sally Ride. She was in a hurry to get to the airport, odd because most of the pilot astronauts had no problem in borrowing one of the jets at NASA. She was talkative and carried herself with confidence. When most people talk about themselves especially if they have achieved a lot in their lives, Sally Ride was a true Trail Blazer, she was not arrogant or a braggart . She was pleasant and I enjoyed listening to her. She was running late and was anxious about getting to the airport in time for her flight. I got her there on time for her flight and she gave me a $20.00 tip. After that episode of driving a cab, I got a technician job with the Air National Guard, where I met and worked with other astronauts. For me Sally Ride seemed down to earth ironic for an astronaut.

    The grains of sand run through 2012’s hourglass more like a river than a trickle. I think 2013 will be an exceptional year, but then I’ve been told that I stumble trough thsi life with blinders on. Will we see improvement in our lives next year? I think we will, Entropy has set in to our society and the tides of prosperity ebb. I’ve been told it’s all about attitude, and with the right attitude we will all see good thngs.
    Leaving you with fond wishes for a better 2103 and this… Ops! Did I say 2103? I guess you must have figured out that I am presently on a Science Fiction binge.

    Luv Ya
    Ray (Clyde)

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